Me. I have a phone mount installed in the shower. I need my dopamine receptors to be constantly stimulated from artificial sources, or I can’t accomplish basic tasks like cleaning/showering/cooking. Executive Dysfunction is a bitch.
People with normal dopamine levels just can’t relate, so I get a lot of flack and am often called lazy. Which is annoying as hell because I genuinely want to be a functioning adult, but my stubborn brain just refuses to let me accomplish anything without external stimulation. It’s torture being labeled something you’re not, just because someone can’t understand what it’s like when your brain won’t make the reward chemicals on its own. But it is what it is.
Also BTW I’ve been doing this for a decade and only once has a phone actually died on me from water damage. So I don’t worry about it. I’m clumsy so I always have an insurance plan for my phones regardless…
Stimulants like Adderall, PEA, Octodrine, and Propylhexedrine are a half decent band-aid, but they raise my blood pressure and make me feel “tweaky” so I don’t want to take them every day. They feel like they’re slowly killing me. I mean imagine taking meth every single day. That’s what it feels like for me. Unfortunately since tolerance builds rapidly, I have to take massive doses for it to continue working.
So I try not to take stims more than a few times a month, because even once a week is too much for me. It sucks ass that there’s no long-term solution for ADHD. Just temporary fixes that rapidly stop working.
Me. I have a phone mount installed in the shower. I need my dopamine receptors to be constantly stimulated from artificial sources, or I can’t accomplish basic tasks like cleaning/showering/cooking. Executive Dysfunction is a bitch.
People with normal dopamine levels just can’t relate, so I get a lot of flack and am often called lazy. Which is annoying as hell because I genuinely want to be a functioning adult, but my stubborn brain just refuses to let me accomplish anything without external stimulation. It’s torture being labeled something you’re not, just because someone can’t understand what it’s like when your brain won’t make the reward chemicals on its own. But it is what it is.
Also BTW I’ve been doing this for a decade and only once has a phone actually died on me from water damage. So I don’t worry about it. I’m clumsy so I always have an insurance plan for my phones regardless…
Is that not something that meds like Ritalin can help with, like ADHD? Or is it different?
Stimulants like Adderall, PEA, Octodrine, and Propylhexedrine are a half decent band-aid, but they raise my blood pressure and make me feel “tweaky” so I don’t want to take them every day. They feel like they’re slowly killing me. I mean imagine taking meth every single day. That’s what it feels like for me. Unfortunately since tolerance builds rapidly, I have to take massive doses for it to continue working.
So I try not to take stims more than a few times a month, because even once a week is too much for me. It sucks ass that there’s no long-term solution for ADHD. Just temporary fixes that rapidly stop working.