Stimulants like Adderall, PEA, Octodrine, and Propylhexedrine are a half decent band-aid, but they raise my blood pressure and make me feel “tweaky” so I don’t want to take them every day. They feel like they’re slowly killing me. I mean imagine taking meth every single day. That’s what it feels like for me. Unfortunately since tolerance builds rapidly, I have to take massive doses for it to continue working.
So I try not to take stims more than a few times a month, because even once a week is too much for me. It sucks ass that there’s no long-term solution for ADHD. Just temporary fixes that rapidly stop working.
Man adderall gave me psychosis that landed me in a mental hospital.
I’m also a non functional adult and I’m trying to unfuck my document situation here in Hell America.
I do agree that yeah; stimulants are bad especially if you are like me. Who is prone to bouts of insanity because on stims you really can’t really control your own thoughts anymore.
It’s a terrifying experience and honestly it’s not that that uncommon to have ADD or ADHD and be a bit psychotic.
Especially worse with the OCD that I used to have with it.
But you know at least I had a super friendly dog and grandparents to take care of me and a Nintendo Switch.
I got over it eventually but I never wanna go through that experience ever again.
Though I do appreciate having the ability to sleep for an entire year essentially through a winter.
Being in a dark room also helped a lot.
It kinda feels like a fever dream when I remember it now though.
I should probably go back on anti psychotics after my most recent break with stimulants.
Shame I don’t have money or health insurance.
Is that not something that meds like Ritalin can help with, like ADHD? Or is it different?
Stimulants like Adderall, PEA, Octodrine, and Propylhexedrine are a half decent band-aid, but they raise my blood pressure and make me feel “tweaky” so I don’t want to take them every day. They feel like they’re slowly killing me. I mean imagine taking meth every single day. That’s what it feels like for me. Unfortunately since tolerance builds rapidly, I have to take massive doses for it to continue working.
So I try not to take stims more than a few times a month, because even once a week is too much for me. It sucks ass that there’s no long-term solution for ADHD. Just temporary fixes that rapidly stop working.
Man adderall gave me psychosis that landed me in a mental hospital. I’m also a non functional adult and I’m trying to unfuck my document situation here in Hell America. I do agree that yeah; stimulants are bad especially if you are like me. Who is prone to bouts of insanity because on stims you really can’t really control your own thoughts anymore. It’s a terrifying experience and honestly it’s not that that uncommon to have ADD or ADHD and be a bit psychotic. Especially worse with the OCD that I used to have with it. But you know at least I had a super friendly dog and grandparents to take care of me and a Nintendo Switch. I got over it eventually but I never wanna go through that experience ever again. Though I do appreciate having the ability to sleep for an entire year essentially through a winter. Being in a dark room also helped a lot. It kinda feels like a fever dream when I remember it now though. I should probably go back on anti psychotics after my most recent break with stimulants. Shame I don’t have money or health insurance.