dogerwaul

kiss my fucking ass and fuck you and your son.

lol

yeah that’s a fair assessment.

yup, i guess. when someone makes a dumb blanket statement like that i feel it necessary.

agriculture is also contributing to human accelerated climate change, jsyk.

good

this is a motherfucking nightmare.

we found the main character

How many fascists have you killed?

lone wolves are useless and a detriment to any serious cause. i haven’t killed any fascists because i cannot, i will be jailed.

A Ted Kaczynski would say a person who really cares about these issues would already be sending mail bombs.

see above. i disagree with his assessment that one-offs are useful. he is proof it accomplishes nothing.

but could you not bring your partner along?

he is more of a homebody than me, lol.

Just because you have the luxury of time and space to be involved in politics and spend a lot of emotional energy in that area doesn’t mean that everyone else has that luxury.

i’d argue it isn’t a luxury it is a responsibility and i do not have the time or space, actually. i do it at the sacrifice of my mental health as i’ve made clear.

frankly, i’m not interested in this conversation because you are not the first, second, third, or 100th person to say the same thing and my response is never agreed with and it just becomes a back and forth until we either agree to disagree or tell each other off.

also no, i have not stopped short of actively killing fascists. murder it would not be, it is self-defense. ultimately, i am morally superior and am confident in that fact. it’s not something i expect people to understand. i am lucky that my partner feels the same as me and we can share in this worldview. what makes me more correct than others? the fact that i am and they aren’t. i have the outlook that results in the least amount of human death and suffering.

i know it seems that way but it’s only because you are not accurately viewing the world, in my opinion. it isn’t that there are dicks, it’s that there are uneducated, ignorant, self-serving people who are just trying to get by. they don’t usually act maliciously but their unintentional ignorance and poor judgment causes worldwide death and suffering.

i cannot stand the average person any longer. truly, i have struggled my entire life. but the PTA mom who votes Dem without giving much thought? she is just as responsible for fascism as her Republican counterparts. it doesn’t matter if she isn’t doing it intentionally or maliciously—the end result is the same. if you are effectively contributing to the destruction of humanity i want nothing to do with you on a personal level.

just because someone is “worse” than you doesn’t mean they don’t have value

very true. however, it does make me less willing to be friends with them. we can be mutually kind and supportive, but i don’t want to know them on a personal level. also, it’s all a spectrum anyway. there are greys between each side, so it’s not like i’m looking for carbon copies of myself. but the radius of my tolerance is low, lol.

i try to lean forward, i do. i am, to my own chagrin, romantically optimistic about humanity. but it isn’t unrealistic. i ground myself by keeping up on sociological and political trends. shit is bad. shit is worse than bad. shit is worse than worse than bad. it’s all impacted how i see others and their role in the world.

It is possible to improve and for things to get better.

oh sure, i don’t deny that. i have experienced a lot of positive growth over the years and hope it continues. but i am not financially stable enough to pursue psychiatric and psychological treatment, so… just kinda dealing with it the ways i can.

Does that mean you can’t value someone with different beliefs than you?

not necessarily. our differences cannot be significant. it does mean i am far more intolerant than most, though, but on a personal level… not as an outward participant in society. i am pleasant to everyone i meet, but developing a friendship comes with baggage for me. i am less willing to talk to people with the goal of friendship in mind because i largely encounter folks who, frankly, i am better than. and that’s pretty sad because i suck.

What group, if you saw it was starting up in your area, would motivate you to go out and meet people?

it is unlikely i would go because i am unable to attend events solo due to anxiety. if i don’t know anyone i have no security blanket. i am not in the right headspace to tackle this issue at the moment.

I have tons of friends with mental health struggles of all kinds.

yes, but we are all unique, unfortunately. none of them are me with my specific problems. a big part of my struggle is socializing in general.

But you say that you don’t value the same people I do, but what makes you think so?

because i know the reception of the beliefs i hold and they are universally condemned

What makes you think finding a group you would vibe with is particularly hard?

there aren’t any groups that interest me in my area. i have looked on all the usual places.

just go to things

look lol, i know. it seems that simple. i have significant mental health issues that complicate things. i wish i could just go. i also don’t value the same people you may do, so finding people i truly get along with is not easy for me.

oh, uh, sure? that’s an odd thing to reply with when i never implied only having friends on Lemmy or online was healthy… so… alright. i do have friends in person, if we’re going to talk about it. i just still find it rather difficult to make new connections.

…huh? i don’t know what that means.

yeah but making friends IRL as a mid 30s millennial feels impossible.

i am being sincere, yes. i often try to face when i am wrong to determine why i acted the way i did. i’m glad you find it difficult to wrap your head around. that means you haven’t lived through what i have. nobody should. without going into much detail, i was bullied out of high school when my life was threatened. that’s the kind of place i grew up in.

i am fighting several demons still but thank you for your kind words.

that is a fair point. it’s a sore subject for me, unfortunately. i may not have approached the topic in the right head space having grown up experiencing shame for simply being attracted to the same gender. i’d watch couples smile and laugh together and say, “we’re trying for a baby,” clearly implying what i was describing, and the room just reacting positively and encouragingly. you see that over and over and you can’t help but develop a negative connection to the phrase. what you said is of course true. i don’t react with disgust towards anyone, so at least i’m not making my discomfort known, but you’ve given me something to mull over and try to correct. sometimes you forget that you aren’t being attacked anymore when it’s all you’ve been used to.