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Cake day: December 3rd, 2025
  • Artwork@lemmy.worldtoFuck AI@lemmy.world•AI Slop is Killing Online CommunitiesEnglish
    1·
    23 hours ago

    Thank you! Of course, there are numerous people I did support and many other who are/were there right now. It’s priceless and radiates with good, awesome beliefs that someone got their issue solved and moved forward.

    Yet, the thought that people who do not know the whole story, and just saw “banned”/“K-lined” will always remember that and do not consider/value your contribution at all, and the operators won’t even care about you anymore. Since everyone has their own beliefs and time available.

    There was an operator (who’s name starts with letter K), who is an operator anymore, banned me 3 times in a row, in the #linux channel. It was in ~2020, and people remind me and share about it in another channels ruining my reputation to the point no one considers me serious. Yet, no one even asked me once, why the operator banned me in the first place. And you know why? Because they didn’t like my name! My name was “Artfaith”, and they put it to the reason of the ban itself! How is that alright? No one even thinks about it, and what they see is “banned”.

    It makes sense the person is not an operator anymore, or not even joined to the channel the last I checked, but my reputation is ruined. Just 2 months ago, I was arguing with a person in channel #web regarding their questionable approach to library/dependency handling in programming, and shared my experience that would improve theirs current setup. And what you think? A person from #linux comments on my contribution out of the blue saying that I should not be trusted because I was banned multiple times. I start to arguing about it, called operators telling I get defamed, and bang, I am banned again…

    I added people who troll me or ruin my presence in /ignore, but it did not help, because they start ruining my reputation behind my back, and it happened a lot, when someone highlights me in chat in a question to that ignored person, and what I see: “Oh. Yeah, they are a bad person then. I won’t listen to them, too.”

    It’s more than a decade, and I neither nickname change nor discussion helped… Some channels prohibit alternative accounts like Libera’s IRC #linux, and that caused me to another trouble when I wanted to start from a blank canvas…

    For another example of pure sadness that some Netop was actually waiting until I disconnect from Libera just to silently ban me, so that no one would see the “K-lined” message in their IRC clients! How sad is that…

    EMail conversation excerpt




    Yes, it looks like I am 16 years old, but I am almost 40. There’s just so much I can do…

    There’s much to this of course, where I tried to stay calm, I was trying to agree with these bans, re-read rules multiple times, I was careful, and nothing helped. A single mistake or even a slightest of it - ban.
    I was calm, silent, shouting, screaming, sending polite, impolite, and overly lovely, and rude messages, they are just indifferent and don’t care. More to that, they just increased my ban to the year, just because I was not calm in the initial ban reason where I got K-lined from all channels, again, because I had issues in a single channel only.

    This is all inhuman… this causes me dark feelings where I invested too much of time into this? Into knowing that the whole network sees me as someone I am even not? And don’t want to hear me out throwing me like biomass? Is that modern, human attitude…?
    These chats helped me to stay social, too, because I am physically mute since ~2012, due to an accident, and just a few know non-verbal languages out there…

    At least, my job helps where I am less social, and just try focusing on the work instead…

    My gracious sakes… I so hope… no one will ever experience this… it caused me suicidal feelings, and you call that fun? I supported numerous, shared my personal experience I get normally paid for, in military and programming.

  • Artwork@lemmy.worldtoFuck AI@lemmy.world•AI Slop is Killing Online CommunitiesEnglish
    82·
    3 days ago

    Not only that, but people changed, I believe.

    I was literally banned from Communities I’ve been joined since 2007, that is Freenode , now Libera, and OFTC IRC public networks.
    Netops just K-line people who raise LLM/AI issues over human effort, and even if you heat a single channel.
    If you get in a trouble by protecting yourself against an LLM lover/troll in popular public channels, you get muted or banned. If you do it again, you get k-lined, regardless of how many channels you are in, and your reputation.

    They won’t care about your past, your contribution amount for all the years, or that you have literally no issues and are totally supportive in other channels. They see you heat a channel, regardless the reason, they k-line you for a week/month or so, the most possible event.

    I lost trust in some very known IRC network, and I now regret all the years I invested there. There are awesome, freaking marvelous people. Yet, the administrators and operators, who are friends with the netops, are ruining the whole network, and the communities like Linux, PHP, Javascript, Typescript, Networking, I wholeheartedly believe.

    There’s hope there are still networks with actually Catalyst beliefs. And your years of helping people in chats, technically or psychologically, will actually stay valued throughout some few year at least… A ban for a quick heated issue? A k-line for a single channel issue with 30+ joined? This is inhuman.

    In 2010 Freenode, it was the most welcoming and awesome public place to chat, find miracles, discover knowledge and stay social with people in similar subjects. Today? It’s just toxic, inadequate, and is maintained by sad people who probably, considering the age since my participation since 2007, have no children and love power, since this is where they feel themselves worthy.

    I believed at least chats and forums will stay more human, where you could escape from the politics. I believed at least social networks that are not-so managed by popular vendors, will keep it more human…

    IRC is centralized. If you use IRC, you must trust it. You must trust the Netops. Yet, as I mentioned, since 2007, in around 2024, I lost trust in Libera, unfortunately, since there are incredible, ingenious and awesome people…

    In more legally supervized networks, like Discord/Slack/Telegram/StackOverflow chats, and systems like LinkedIn/GitHub you still may get a proper and accountable response from the administration. You still may comment on it in public and receive a fair attitude in response, and one of the reasons is that these do care about their public stance and reputation.

    I donated to Libera, around 540 Euro or so, I believe, for all the years. And what? They could not care less.
    Yet, I’ve been with Discord Nitro since 2017, and with all 4 cases I had there, they responded responsibly and carefully. Thank you, Discord support.

    And, of course! Steam! Steam support is one of the most accountable I know, if considered the ratio popularity/responsibility, too!

    If we consider IRC only here, nowadays, indeed, it’s just some people got indifferent and hateful. And especially those who have some kind of responsibility. These people, including Netops mentioned above, likely have less time to moderate and just remove people from their life.

    Yes, of course, it’s normally just either lack of time of responsible people who moderate it. Or, they have personal issues like lack of children they wished but could not organize their life for it, dreams or wished tasks undone etc. And of course, the time today flies, and with so many information flying all the peoples’ lives, it’s a sure possible reason the overall moderation in non-supervized systems like IRC is just almost inhuman most of the times.

    LLM/AI trends do not support them, but increase their moderation time against bots, and leave less time for actual human attitude, so they just remove actual people. block them, annihilate other from their lives. Just because it’s easier.

    Yet, these, now banned, are still people, who just try to talk, discover, and stay supportive/human online. Who are not biomass to just throw away. These are people who you can talked with and find solutions together.

    So, please be careful… on any network/system with lack of proper legal transparency that would protect you from power-hungry people, or just as a customer.

    I am ~40, and nowadays I regret my choices choosing such venues that just dropped me as a biomass regardless my finite time participating and being supportive.

    It’s not about communication or human there today, I believe…

    I regret my precious life time investing in there…

  • Artwork@lemmy.worldOPtoFuck AI@lemmy.world•Chris (Simpsons artist) has illustrated a New York Times essay on artists using AI…English
    3·
    8 days ago

    Of course… absolutely… thank you…
    This is one of the main reasons art exist. To transfer a real feeling, experience over the time from an alive soul to soul…

    A memorable piece from the 74th Tokyo University of the Arts Graduation Exhibition (Geidai Graduate Exhibition). Mao Watanabe’s “A Cute Mascot That Won’t Offend You.” Graduate School Design major. Exhibition room on the 3rd floor of the University Art Museum.
    Source [warning: graphic]

    The text inside the “cute mascot” states (translated using Google):

    Sometimes we have to look at things that are not pretty and are unpleasant.
    - “Because I don’t really understand.”
    - “Because it has nothing to do with me.”
    - “It’s kind of uncomfortable.”
    As you lose sight of everything, eventually there will be nothing cute left.

    Since isn’t it for everyone’s own, or credendo vides!

    The main reason I am interested in art is communication… The soulful discussion about the reason, the truth, the life, the very purpose… A dialog between us, human, the people with souls and our beliefs, experience, desires, our mission… An attempt to express and listen to those who discover the world and life as a miracle…

    To be frank… I try to always avoid anything AI in art however I can… because I instantly consider my finite life time…

    Art helps me to find the very reason I appeared on this planet, in this Universe, in the infinite of time…
    The effort in art expressed emphasizes the time as precious and finite resource we have…

    The effortful unique human experienced artwork helps me to believe… to believe I must continue the faithful adventure for the reason other people do…

  • Artwork@lemmy.worldtoUnpopular Opinion@lemmy.world•The whole furry thing is stupidEnglish
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    17 days ago

    Wonderful day!

    Well, I do not and never understood it, too, of me being ~40 years old…

    I cannot imagine my children to wish being animals… it would damage me… permanently… I believe…
    It feels like a disrespect towards and devaluation of myself a human, my race, my family and parents who gifted me a life of a human…

    Absolutely… I do love to be a human… and I do love other individuals who adventure the infinitely magnificent world and share experiences to learn from each other…

    And indeed… A human mind is so ineffably incredible that such is possible and this is how I do realize it. A person who considers themselves an animal may have desires more powerful and prioritized if compared to someone else who was raised differently and had a different life experience that did not develop such animal feelings in their mind that consume them to such a degree to stay focused on it, controllably or not.

    And never I would ever consider myself anyone else but a human, and I am proud of being one! But I do also realize how incredible a mind can be, and a worldview of someone else is sure another world to discover…

    There’s no chance I would ever tolerate it enough to stay always in contact with a person who believes they are an animal, where I would also be afraid it may damage my own beliefs and my plans to raise my children; and I do fear that I will make an accidental but critical mistake in such a relationship due to my lack of proper understanding of certain traits of worldviews of such people, considering my years and subconsciously rules and already developed instincts.

    Meanwhile, I do also realize that there’s just 100 years maximum, and I haven’t met anyone yet who actually know the reason we appeared here. There’s a little knowledge of a human psychology and how certain life events affect people in long term to the point they find themselves better as animals. Perhaps they feel themselves safer or closer to the nature. It might be something deep that subconsciously suggests them animal desires to be into.

    Not to mentioned that I do believe every single person is a whole another Universe, indeed… to always respect and celebrate their existence in the miracle known as life…

    I just hope my children, and my friends’ children will love to stay human, and will love other people… considering the media of constant suggestions to try alternatives…

    To actually see it, one should see the world from the prism of life of another…

    Hence, there’s nothing “stupid” in it I believe… Weird? Odd? Awful? Awesome? Probably. But, in the end, it’s just us, people, being miracles and live the way we see it, striving, believing, and trying our best…

    We inherit the earth, we inherit the war
    I inhabit the wound, I dwell in the harm
    Oh, how far we fall: we’re casualties of time
    Oh, how far we fall: forgive existence

    ~ Inherit the Earth - Silent Planet

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    So here I float in salt water
    How many times will I tell myself I’m worthy?
    As I soak the salt water
    I feel it sting the places I need it most

    ~ Salt Water - Portair

    -–

    I’m holding out for something real
    Something I can touch and feel
    On the bright side of the moon
    Looking for the bright side of the moon…

    ~ The Moon - Cinders